Why did I let myself trapped in this situation?
Day by day, I feel uncomfortable yet I stay.
But it’s me, the fool who keeps holding in the past.
You still watch that documentary wildlife about crocodile while eating your favorite vanilla cookies. Still unaware of my wary eyes.
“Where’d you goin’?” You asked when I got up from the couch.
“Toilet.”
How many lies did I tell you for these past 3 months?
Too much I guess.
It’s not I want to let you go. No. I still can’t let you go. We’ve been together for a long time though I know it’s not always to be a good excuse to stay. Maybe it’s kinda habit in disguise? I don’t know.
I checked on my phone. I can’t hide my smile.
I swear I’m not cheating on anyone, but again, I didn’t know why I keep standing still.
Ridiculous.
I stayed too long in the toilet.
When go I back to the living room, you changed the channel into a gossip channel.
“Got a volcano?”
“Niagara.”
You laughed.
It’s supposed to be like this.
But not with you.
Not anymore.
But today is not the day.
Maybe later.
Maybe after I hear the words that I’m waiting for.
Maybe…
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